no feel but all pain

day by day went away..
me always here..
rite here waiting for the day..
no one know inside im dying..
i just throw the feel far away..
let people think me im okay..
i want to enjoy them..
i bear to cry forever if it will make them happy..

i know..
no one perfect in this life..
somehow we're still have some weaknesses..
we still have some lacking here and there..
we try to improve as much as we can for the betterment

but..
some people doesn't realize for it..
everything we've done..
just like a water drop in the river..
nothing were change..
they just know to assume all are the same..
they doesn't know how to appreciate..
they doesn't know how to thank..
they doesn't know how to sorry..

but..
we still can accept it with open hand whole-heartedly over and over..
we already told the truth..
we already sincere with the life..
we already recognized certain thing inside us..
does it mean that they are really important to us???
do they can feel it??
NO???
speechless about it..

O Allah..
please..
don't let my heart stop from beating now..
just give me once to breathe with the smile and joy..
then, i'll go to you..